The Creator rebukes the one he loves
Happy is the man whom the Creator punishes, and whom you teach your Torah "(Tehillim - Psalms 94-12)
If you are going through difficult times, don't worry, Hashem is right there and He is allowing it for your good.
As King David says:
"How good it is for me to have been afflicted, in order for me to learn your statutes, I prefer the Torah from your mouth to thousands of gold and silver coins, your hands have made me and have molded, grant me understanding so that I may learn your commandments "
(Tehillim- Psalms 119: 71-73)
Punishment and suffering is what leads a person towards a greater perception of the Torah.
And indeed if from suffering you come to increase your understanding, this will be a sign that you have achieved something great and that you have worked with suffering in the appropriate way.
Your deepening of spiritual awareness is a sign that you were able to use suffering to reach the state of "Bitul" (what is self-nullification) in the final goal, because the vestige that remains after the state of " bitul "is what generates in the increased understanding of the Torah.
(Based on the teachings of Rabbi Najman)
Continue! Receive everything with joy and Emuna (faith) since everything that the Creator sends you is for your own growth and benefit. Take it with a lot of love!
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